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"Horrified Looks"

Talking with a friend a couple weeks ago about life in general he suggested that when I am listening to my favorite songs I should play close attention to the words to find out what they mean to me.  Ever since then I have been hearing the words in a completely different way than I ever have.

"Horrified looks from
Everyone in the room
But I'm only looking at you."

This is from a Taylor Swift song (of course) where she breaks up a wedding when the guy was marrying an awful girl.

What it means to me at the moment:

For the majority of my life people have always felt the need to try and control me with their opinions and their life style.  Being the ME that I am, I always choose to be ME.  I drown out the thoughts, opinions, ideas, hurts, pains and experiences of others as well as my mind and in the quiet I listen to my heart.  I find that that is the only place where MY true answers lie, within me.  People always look outside themselves for answers, but I have found that all my answers are within my heart and my soul and God has equipped each of us to access him at anytime. 

As people continue to gaze with "horrified looks" I will always continue to keep the focus on my life, truth and happiness.

"Others may judge you from the outside looking in, but they do not know you, they do not see you, and so their judgements are not valid.  Do not make them valid by taking them on as your own.  They have no meaning.  Do not wait for others to see you as you really are, for they see you through the eyes of their own pain."

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