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Missing Him

John is out of town for a few days.
I guess I thought it would be way worse but the kids keep me so busy that the days go by so quickly and I don't have much time to think about it.
And then I have been spending time with friends which helps as well.
Everything goes well until dinner is cooked and ate, kids are calm, movie time.
It gets quiet and calm and that's when I really start missing him.  
I get to snuggle with all all the kids, they are such good company.

No matter how much I love my kids, and I love them A LOT, it's just not the same as having a partner.
I avoid my bedroom because it seems so empty and lonely at night without him.
Correction, it IS so lonely without him, and I am in no way a needy person, but it's different when there is someone I really want to spend my time with.

Can't imagine myself going to bed alone... so I don't!
All the kids pile in with me!  
Their company and snuggles help so much, but I can't wait to have him back!
Life just isn't the same without him.
Miss you John Benham! 

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